TribUtE~ nOt To hOuSeMates~

this might be childish or over reacting..
but somehow..i have the urge of writing and
i really feel there is a need for me to write this tribute..
for those who knew..u'll know who i meant..
for those who dont..let it be a mystery to you..
guess its time for you to be Sherlock Holmes..
(i think i'm going to have a new obsession now...Go Sherlock Holmes!!!)
opps..back to the root..
i'm not good at poetry...but this came from the deepest part of my heart..


To a person you know who..


we may not be best buddies but i'm sure its nice to be one
and how i regret of missing that chance...

we may not be an ally but i'm glad we never be an enemy
as i cant even imagine having a grudge over you...

i may not be a joker but when you at least smile at my stupid jokes..
it makes me feel warm inside and its enough for me..

i may not be treated with red carpets every time i meet you...
but to be tease around..i prefer that rather than those formal conversation we never have..

to have a day without you is of course possible and would be normal..
but knowing you are not somewhere close..
its a pain i have to bear..
wishing that our friendship would last forever is something important for me now..

i may not be a shoulder for you to lean on..
but i could always offer a hand..
if you need help in near future..
just buzz me and i'll try my best to help..
i'm not a superman with extra super power to fly to your rescue..
but by praying and let The AL-Mighty do the rest seems to be the simplest and the most possible help i could offer..
sometimes we need the Dua' of our friends to make things better,right?

i may not be the first one to know your problem..
and that, i could understand and accept...
but when the first time i heard it, is not directly from you...
that is something i really regret now..
though i feel we are close..the truth is..there is a wide gap between us...
i don't even have your trust, argh!

thanks for the memories stored nicely in the little album on top of my head..
thanks for the laughter that somehow brighten my day..
thanks for the teases that somehow loosen the gap between us..and how i'm really going to miss it..
thanks for everything..

i'm sorry for not being someone significant in your life as you are to mine...
i'm grateful to Lord above for the chance of meeting you..adding another chapter of good memories in my life..and how bad for those who missed the chance i had..though I did not fully utilize it..

may you have a bright future ahead and May ALLAH ease your pain as i know He would always be..
have a happy life...with that free spirit and happy-go-lucky attitude you have..i'm sure you can put a smile though your heart is aching..cause that's what life is about isn't?
faking your smile in this hypocrite world...
hope our friendship would last forever..
forget me not...

neyh...
umareta koto
de aita koto
kono jikang soba ni ireru koto..
ureshi katta des!!!

nanzen nanoku no naka de
kimi to aeta koto kiseki da ne
konna chikaku ni iru shiawase
kimi ni dake ni okuro yo..
hora...
matta aitaides....
anatawa totemo iino tomodachi des..hountoni!!
jaa~